Learning a new kind of mothering

My son is on the threshold of adulthood and I am feeling caught in that chasm between active motherhood and plain old motherhood, where you remain a mother but you don’t get to handle any of the chores. I liked the chores, I enjoyed active motherhood. I felt like being the mother I wanted to be was my purpose.

But here I am, purpose spent and with time on my hands.

My thoughts and feelings were a little chaotic this morning and I couldn’t contain them and put order to them so I decided to use that energy to clean the space under my house. I am not…